My day started out productive.
I woke up early.
Went to a Barre3 class.
Got home, and cooked myself a breakfast burrito.
The end. I never even changed out of my workout clothes. (I'm still in them, actually.)
It turned out to be a lazy, lazy day. At least I tried?
In the midst of all the laziness, there was definitely thought. Some inward gazing, if you will. I'm doing this daily devotional by Darlene Zschech, and I'm absolutely loving it. One of the questions she posed a few days ago was, "What do you need for your soul to be strong?" She said that when our souls are weak, we become very vulnerable and our weaknesses are then exploited. It really got me thinking. For years, my life has been filled with a lot of doing - dealing with the inward struggle that comes with trying to balance my spiritual life, making money, building a career, being a good wife...etc. In the midst of the doing I most definitely lost track of taking my spiritual temperature every once in a while, and evaluate how I am doing. I am honestly not sure if I have ever asked myself the question, "What do I need for my soul to be strong?". What can I be doing daily to ensure that I'm built up, prepared, and guarding the most vulnerable parts of myself? It's been a while since I really thought about that. Autopilot is a very easy thing to hit. Too easy.
I've come up with a list. I'm pretty sure this list will be refined, and maybe even revised a bit, but for now this is it. (If you decide to make a list, I feel like I should tell you that my instinct was to go with what makes me feel good, and they were all feelings, i.e. approval, security, peace... but then I realized that there wasn't a whole lot of practical, daily things that I can do to go along those lines. So I changed it to things that I have more control over.)
- Consistency with Jesus. (not a going through the motions. But a doing whatever it takes to meet with Him. Even it if doesn't look like opening my Bible. If this thing is a relationship, then it should look like one.
- Transparency. I'm still trying to nail down what this one looks like for me. I think it gets a little trickier as a married person. I don't have a mentor that I meet with every week, or someone who I am accountable to regularly except Eric. But, as you know if you're married, that can get really, really comfortable. So, I'm still figuring this one out, but I know it definitely needs to be on this list!
- Servanthood. I think when I take on the attitude of putting others first consistently, no matter the setting (in a church, in my home, in the grocery store) I will find strength. If Jesus took on the attitude of a servant, and it was a characteristic that marked HIm, then I just know I want it to be that for me too.
- Music. I've come to understand that music is an intrinsic part of who I was made to be. Whether I'm performing with my sister, singing on a worship team, listening to an amazing album, or going to see others play it, it needs to be a regular part of my life. It revives me, centers me, and reminds me of what I was created to do.
So there you have it. I guess it turned out to be a productive day after all.